Friday, August 30, 2013

Insecure


Insecure. It's every girls nightmare.
It keeps the girl away from the world.
It makes the girl feel like she does not belong in the crowd.
It highlights the imperfection in the girl's life.
I am insecure. Insecure with my face, my body, my behaviour, my attitude.
Everything.
Keep comparing myself with others.
Always asking myself. Am I good enough to be loved?
Do I deserve to be loved and be happy?
People will only see what I want them to see.
They can only view the surface but they won't be able to zoom behind it.
Physically well. Mentally broken.
Fragile heart.
Wrong choice of words could break it.
Ever wonder why it is so difficult for a broken hearted girl to fall in love again?
Ever wonder why it took years to heal every pieces of the broken heart?
Yeah, true. The insecurity itself. The pain that they can't bear for another heartbreak.
Yes, we have to be strong. It is not the end of the world.
But it is the end of the fairy tale every girls ever dream of.
Easier said than done.
Try to be in my shoes. Try to feel the heart break.
Try to struggle to move on and live life like ordinary.
You tell me how does it feels.
Then only you will know the truth meaning of insecurity.

Till then.

Love,
Puteri

Some words are better left unspoken


Some words are better left unspoken.
People might misinterpret the meaning of our words.
People might misjudge us.
People might hurt us.
The truth is, not everyone can accept the fact that they are not perfect.
That ain't nobody is perfect.
But the way they think they are so high up and our words mean harm to them.
Argument happened. Relationship broken. 
So, I decided to stay shut and left those words unspoken.

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You won't stay that way forever.
You never look up on people.
You never respect others.
You hurt people with your words.
To you, I wish you are happy with what you cause people to feel.

Thank you for open up my eyes to see the true colours of yours.


Thursday, August 29, 2013

Trip to Hutan Lipur Sg Kanching & Taman Layang-Layang Kepong

Good afternoon everyone.
Menunggu overseas unit reply email pasal budget..
Bukan takde keje. Tapi sambil buat keje sambil mengarang.

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22 Aug 2013. Arini Mr Chef off day. awal-awal lagi dah plan nak date katanya. Ok i'm in! Masalahnya ialah dia off day weekdays..Alamak..how? Terpaksalah I mengambil half day..demi utk keluar berdating..Nampak tak pengorbanan i kat situ sygku? Lucky my boss ni jenis senang approve leave. dapat la gi date..

After TB Open House tu aku terus gerak balik.. Mr Chef tggu kat Damai & naik LRT together to Setiawangsa. Pick-up my car and head to the destination.
Dia ckp plan nak pegi picnic kat Sg Kanching. I follow je. Aku mmg suka activity air ni..
Hutan Lipur Sg Kanching ni dekat je.. Kalau ikut Jalan Kuching straight je..Akan lalu selayang then straight lagi..Macam nk ke rawang tu..Bayaran masuk RM1.00 seorang and parking fee RM2.00 per car.
Sampai sana around 2.30pm. Nak ke air terjun tu kena memanjat sikit ye..So bersedialah dari segi mental utk menggagahkan diri naik bukit..Kejap je pun..Sepanjang jalan naik tu banyak monyet.Kalau uols bawak makanan, jaga2 sikit. Diorang ni suke dtg curi makanan orang..

Jom layan gambar..
Dah mcm apek jual sayur dah aku tgk..hahaha






At about 4.30pm camtu kitorang bergerak balik..Singgah Aeon Big jap cari makan..Lepas tu pegi lepak kat Taman Layang-Layang Kepong..
Betul la orang cakap..indahnya masa bercinta..

Muka pucat macam orang tgh beranak anak lelaki..

Duck Face!!
Lepas dating, lepak makan and balik..
Best jugak sekali sekala dating mcm ni..Kalau tak asyik2 ke shopping mall tgk wayang tak pun karaoke..boring dah..lebih bik kite menikmati keindahan alam..

Till then.

Love,
Puteri


Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Transaction Banking Raya Open House 2013

Salam Aidilfitri.
Mood raya dah habis. Mood cuti je sekarang ni.

This is just a short entry.
Last week, Group TB organized TB Raya Open House 2013 on 22nd Aug 2013.
I was part of the event helping in the decoration.
The rest are done by Kak Zai & the geng...
Since I'm on half day leave, nothing much I can help except for eating!!hahaha




with the K-pop intern from Korea



This is all the pictures that I have in my possession..

Till then.

Love,
Puteri

Zaheera's Solemnization

Good Morning! Pagi yang indah hari ni.
Nak sambung new entry on my friend's solemnization held on 4 Syawal bersamaan 11 August 2013.

Aku mengenali Zaheera since Form 1 masa kat MRSM Kuala Klawang dulu..Kitorang sama kelas and pernah jadi deskmate. Bile duduk asrama ni, kite memang akan jadi sangat rapat dengan kawan2 seperjuangan. Especially bile kat MRSM ni kite akan together in 1 class until Form 3. Bile dah 3 tahun bersusah senang bersama, tambah pulak kitorang ni otak mereng sekepala, so jadi sangat rapat. Bile balik KL pun akan carpool. That time Zaheera stay kat Mindef, so kalau parents aku amek from KK, Zaheera akan tumpang dan vice versa. Sebabnya, parents tak sanggup nak hadap jalan berliku2 nak ke KK tu wei!

After PMR, we have to choose which MRSM we want to go. So I got MRSM Pengkalan Chepa while Zaheera went to MRSM Jasin. Walaupun kitorang tak sama MRSM bile upper form, silaturrahim tu masih ade. After school masing2 masuk uni pun still contact each other. Bile zaman dah moden and masing2 ade smart phone, maka terciptalah Group Whatsapp kelas Ibnu Khaldun 01-03. Kat sini la we keep each other posted. :)

Actually, she told me that the plan is they want to get engaged on 14 Sept 2013. Suddenly, the plan changed where the 14 Sept 2013 will be the reception day and the solemnization took place on 11 Aug 2013. Reason being because Uncle Zahari may have to fly overseas for official duty. Terkezut jugak la out of sudden ni.. Nasib kat KL boleh la I join the majlis.

Majlis diadakan di De Palma Hotel Ampang. Kecil-kecilan je. Hanya menjemput keluarga dan kawan2 rapat sahaja. Husband die tu is our senior kat MRSM KK dulu. Merangkap anak kawan bapak die. So diorang macam dah kenal since kecik. Kapten Tentera ye uolss! Kalau dah jodoh...

Alhamdulillah..sekali lafaz je Zaheera sah bergelar isteri kepada Kapten Sharun Redzuan..
Tahniah! Semoga jodoh kalian berkekalan ke akhir usia..Semoga bahagia dan selamat menjalani kehidupan baru sebagai suami isteri..amin..

Jom layan gambar...


getting ready


dup dap dup dap ni..



Kami sempat selfie jap!

Alhamdulillah sekali lafaz je..





Anak kedua Ibnu Khaldun, Rayyan Fazhan..Hero kepada Rujhan & Fazlin..

Teman2 rapat yg hadir..

Keluarga Ibnu Khaldun..Rujhan missing.. Yanti menyebok.. :)
Till then.

Love,
Puteri

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

2 Syawal 2013

Salam Aidilfitri.

2 Syawal..Beraya di rumah Cik Aman kat Sg Buloh..
Konvoi ramai2 dr my house..Ade la dlm 5 kereta..Termasuk aku..Aku tak carpool sebab nk ke tempat lain lepas tu..Gambar lupa nak transfer so takdapat nak upload here.

Actually, bukan nak highlight pasal raya rumah Cik Aman pun..Ape yg nak diceritakan ialah beraya selepas rumah Cik Aman..

Mr. Chef call smlm cakap nak ajak balik beraya kat kampung die..Die sedih tak dpt beraya dah 3 tahun..so tahun ni die nk jugak balik kampung die..Plan nya begini..
Die akan balik keje around 5.30pm and lpas tu aku pick him up from his house and trus ke sana..Kampung die kat Felda Sueharto, Tanjung Malim..Kalau lalu PLUS Highway exit bukit tagar..tak jauh mana pun..dlm sejam sampai la..

Hati dah dup dap dup dap ni..Iye la..first time nak jumpe family die..Takut la kena reject menangis tak berlagu mak..Sepanjang perjalanan tu mmg aku tak byk ckp..Nervous and macam2 la pikir..Macam mana kalau mak u tak suke i? Macam mana? Macam mana? huaaaaaa!
Dalam hati dok berdoa panjang jangan lah mak die reject...

Around 6.30pm tu kitorang pun smpai sana..Segan ya ampun! Aku pulak jenis tak reti nak memulakan dulu..kalau org ckp ngan aku aku ok je..Tapi mula2 tu segan la..Alhamdulillah mak die baik sangat..Adik die pun peramah..ade la berborak2 jugak..takde la segan sangat..Mak Ngah die pun ade..byk jugak soalan ditanyanya..hihi..cemerlang I jawab..Mcm jawab job interview..hihi..

On the way balik..Baju dah plan k nak sedondon..


Insya Allah aku akan berhijrah ke arah kebaikan.. :)
Mesti ade yg pelik kan sebab ape aku pakai tudung? Salah satu sebab ialah nak menghormati kawasan kampung tu..since rumah nenek die pun betul2 depan surau..Bukan hipokrit yer..Aku mmg dlm proses utk berhijrah..Cuma mengambil masa sedikit..So aku rasa x salah utk aku start bile ke kampung die..Insya Allah tak lama dah..doa-doakan yang baik-baik..

Around 9 pm kitorang gerak balik ke KL. Lagipun esok die keje..tak leh lewat sangat balik..Balik I yg drive sebab Mr Chef penat..shian die..biarla die rest sepanjang journey tu..U untung taw b dapat I yg boleh drive sorang2..Kalau kena perempuan yg tak reti drive jauh tak ke susah u nnt..hihi

Dlm perjalanan tu die cakap ade benda nak cakap..Aku tanya la ape die? Die cakap...mak dgn abah setuju..Suke..Approve..*dalam hati punye la berbunga sampai rasa nak lompat2 jerit yaaahuuuu!!*
Die kata abah die paling suke..katanya dah dapat gf yg comel yg cantik tu jaga baik2..jangan kawan lama2 sangat..cepat2 ikat..hihi..comel ke aku ni?
Insya Allah kalau ade jodoh tak kemana ye pakcik..Doakan yg terbaik utk kami berdua.. :)

Apepun..I'm so happy! Walaupun u tak baca blog i ni..but I wanna tell u I love u..

Till then.

Love,
Puteri

Syawal 2013

This post is a bit outdated. Sebab too busy to update blog..So akan banyak la post yg masuk lepas ni sebab banyak pending post ni..hihi..

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Syawal 2013 aku rase tak semeriah syawal yg lepas-lepas. Maybe sebab busy dan jugak dah tua. So takde ape yg nak di enjoykan sangat. Cuma yg lain nya syawal tahun ni ialah baju raya I buat sendiri from top to toe and tak beraya alone :)

Persiapan raya..hmmm..simple je..takde beli pape sgt pun..kasut dengan beg pun tak beli. Bajet lari la tahun ni..Takpe..bersederhana itu lebih bagus..

As usual, semua akan berkumpul kat rumah aku utk beraya since nenek stay dgn kami. So two days before raya, pakcik sekeluarga dtg dari perak and stay at our house. Pagi tu settlekan semua masak2 and siap2 utk beraya.

Yang bestnye family kitorang ni sebab ramai..And ada tradisi bersalam-salaman dan memberi duit raya bermula dengan anak yg paling tua ke cucu yang paling muda. Setiap keluarga akan ade baju tema masing. Family aku tahun ni purple lagi..sebabnye..mama la salah beli kain!die ingat kain die beli tu dusty pink rupanya purple jugak!haish!stress! So semorang pun terpaksa la mengikut kaler die..huhu..redha dan pasrah je la..

My family :)


Selfie jap =P

Celebrate Bday Mama yg jatuh on 7/8/13

Bila cucu lelaki berposing...

Ayu je semua cucu perempuan..


Ini lah baju hasil design sendiri dan jahitan sendiri :)

My siblings..Aku nampak muda kan?hihi



The best part is Mr Chef pun datang beraya kat umah!!
Sebabnya...kesian kena bekerja di hari raya..
So aku ajak die datang umah makan sebelum pegi bertugas.. =)





Nothing much on the first raya..

Till then.

Love,
Puteri